To the girl I was a year ago, I wanna say I am sorry.
For the longest time, I thought that the phrase "it will get better" was something that was supposed to happen in a heartbeat; it is not. Things looked rough, and I'm gonna be honest they still do, but that is fine. You are fine.
Looking back at the girl I was a year ago is hard, and frankly, it hurts. So many things could have been done differently. So many things could have been done to better me, my relationships and my friendships.
While the things I was doing I don't agree with now, I don't regret them.
A year ago I was in a relationship that was not healthy is anyway. To this day, that relationship has me waking up with nightmares. There were so many red flags that were missed. To the girl I was a year ago - you will make it out. There will be some hurdles to jump through after you left, but you did it. I am so proud of you.
Leaving that relationship is going to be one of the best, and toughest, things you have done. You will lose some friends, but the ones who see you through will be there tooth and nail.
Speaking of your friends, you need to realize how much they truly do love you. Through heartbreak, school stress and health problems they will be there. Please stop taking them for granted. The Clipper crew will be there, they want the best for you, even if it doesn't seem like it sometimes.
To the girl I was a year ago, it will get better someday and you have that to look forward too. Don't give up just yet, and you will be amazed at the things you can do.
