Looking back and watching "13 Reasons Why" makes me think about what I would've missed out on.

If I did it.

If I made those slits vertical. If I pulled a Hannah. She didn't even make it through her junior year. I felt like junior year now was so far away. Here I am, 21 years old. A huge milestone in life.

I never thought I would be here. I never planned any big 21st birthday party because I never thought the day would come.

Someone at my high school committed suicide during my sophomore year. Around this time actually. I kept thinking about the things he would miss out on.

It's like he moved away and out of everyone's life, but he didn't. He died. He never got to know that life actually gets better. Ir affected everyone in the school.

I can't even explain the melancholy that swarmed the school when everyone found out. They had to make announcements every day for a couple of weeks saying that they have grievance counselors in the office. All of our parents had to talk to us on the day it happened because they were scared it was going to cause a domino effect of suicide. It didn't, thankfully.

Talk to any of the depressed, suicidal kids. Ex scene kids, they'll all tell you. We made it. Not all of them do, but the ones that do will stop at nothing to help the others.

We all are the same.

I thought life would be over when my ex and I broke up.

I thought life would be over when my ex-best friend and I stopped talking.

I thought life would be over when I ate what I want.

I thought life would be over when my mom told me I couldn't do something I wanted to do.

I never thought I would graduate from high school.

You have made it this far, keep going and see how different life could be in a year, maybe a month, even another day. I never thought I would make it to college, or past college, but here I am. It doesn't always have to end when you're young.