Honestly, it happens to almost all of us, even the ones who do the “popping.” You know what I am talking about, right?
The ones who fill your time with plans they have no intention of keeping, who fill your heart with false promises and words that, well, are only words backed by no actions. Yet, we still deal with it.
Why is that?
Well, unfortunately for us being human and all, we always want what we can’t have.
Why is it that when a nice boy who can wear his heart on his sleeve, who makes me a priority and actually follows through with our plans is someone I don’t ever go for? I go for the infamous “bad boy” who has me checking my phone every minute on the minute, who has me second guessing every word or action and makes me feel so completely insecure when I know I’m not “that” girl.
But, I think, maybe, we all do have to be “that” girl. So that when we’re finally done with all of the losers we’ve tried and failed to change, we can appreciate a good man coming into our lives, waiting to sweep us off our feet. So that I can be the woman my future Prince Charming deserves.
Maybe the universe does this on purpose, to see if we’ve really changed or not, to see if we’ve really learned our worth yet and if we really know and understand what we deserve.
For me, this person came into my life and had me hooked instantly. We had such great chemistry and for me, at least, that is so hard to find. He had baggage, and I didn’t care, I was ready to accept it. Which probably says something, I am just not sure what that is yet.
But, then, his true colors showed he wasn’t respectful of my time and that he absolutely did not know how to communicate properly.
It’s time for me to take the advice that I have no problem dishing out, and it’s to not be “that” girl. It is so much easier said than done, we all know this. This time he popped into my world when I am about to make the biggest decision of my life – to move to California. I know he has the capability to keep me here. Funny how the universe works that way, right?
Well, joke's on you this time.