A Letter To My Future Children

I love you, so much. I find it weird though, I have so much love for you but I don't even know you. I've never met you because you have not even entered existence. I don't even know what your name will be.

I'm only 17 right now. I'm thinking about colleges. I want to be a nurse. Despite all my love for you, your life is not my biggest concern right now. I still am trying to figure my life out. But promise me, everything I am doing now is for the benefit of you when you come to this world.

I know I'm not going to be the perfect mom, I'm not even sure I'm going to be a halfway decent mom. I'm sorry about that. But your future grandpa has always told me one thing and that is, "It is my first time being a parent and your first time being a kid."

Please remember that. Although I have experienced more life than you, I still have no idea what I'm doing. I barely know how to take care of myself right now, so learning how to take care of you and support you will be one of the hardest things to do, but I know it will be the best thing I'll ever do.

I hope that you'll always be open to me. I hope that I can give you all the opportunities you need to achieve your wildest dreams and be whoever you want to be. Along the way to your success, know that I will always be on the sidelines as your number one fan. I hope you know that you will always have me. I want you to be able to come with me with the problems as small as a skinned knee to as large as a first heartbreak.

I want to protect you from the evils of the world. When you're young, your oblivion possesses you and makes you think that everything will always be okay. I hate to break it to you, but it won't be. I'm still trying to fully understand that too. Trust me when I say that I will do everything in my power to make sure everything stays okay for you. When you hurt, I know that it will hurt me 100 times more.

I ask you in advance to not get mad at me all the time. If I ever yell at you, ground you, or punish you, know that it is not because I want to. I know it will pain me to see you cry because of something I did. But I promise you I'll only be doing it out of love. I want you to be the best person you can be. If I don't tell you the things you're doing wrong, who will? It's your first time being human! There are many lessons to be learned.

I hope you love the world and all its beauties. I hope God reaches you in special ways and that you form a relationship with Him even stronger than ours. I want you to be happy. I want you to feel loved. You're not even alive yet. You probably won't be for another decade. Yet you already are so loved. That will only increase over time.

Love,

Your Future Mom