When I was younger, I thought of love as a nice boy kissing a pretty girl, and I always wanted to be that pretty girl who was a princess to her prince. As you get older, you realize that love is work and sacrifice, but a lot of my past relationships seem to only be sacrifice and no love at all. As I move on and may potentially meet new guys, I want them to know a few things.
Dear future boyfriend,I cannot wait to meet you. I feel like I've been searching for you for a long long time, and in many ways I have. I've searched for you in shallow places and in boys who broke my heart. It doesn't seem fair the amounts of times I've picked up the broken pieces from boys who destroyed it, but don't worry, I put it back together time and time again just for you. Please don't be scared of its damaged edges and crooked lines, it still works the same, it's just a little harder to hold.
As much as I try, it is still sometimes is hard to give my love out to someone new. So if I seem closed off at first, I apologize, but then again I don't apologize at all. It takes some time for me to get things off my chest, because in the past every time I put myself out in the open, the rain seems to come pouring down and I get soaking wet and cold. Maybe that is why I am so cold sometimes, because I never really warmed up after the rain. But, believe me when I say that once I warm up to you, I will never be cold to you again.
I love with all of my heart, and for you, that can be a really good thing and also a nightmare. It can be a good thing in the times when you need to be loved, and in the times you are questioning your purpose, because I will hug all the hurt away. It can also be a nightmare in the times when I call you ten times in a row because I just really want to talk and you aren't answering, or in the times when I just want to hug you for 20 minutes but you are going to be late for something important. I apologize for this but just know that it means a lot to me if you don't get upset.
One last thing the I'd like you to know is that, even though I may be the most difficult girl you will ever meet, no one will love you harder than I will. That is a promise. I can't wait to find you and meet you, but until then, I'd just like you to know these things.
Love,
A Girl Who Loves Deeply
