I am not your average girl. I don’t stay up at night dreaming about the cute boy I will marry or about finding a guy that I could settle down with. Instead, I dream about the puppy I want to get, the trips I want to go on, and all the other things I’d love to explore in my life.
I can’t imagine being in a serious relationship because there is still so much I don’t know about myself.
I’m still finding out who I am, who I want to be and what all of that means. My question to myself is always “how can I be with someone else when I don’t know who I am?”
Some may look at me and think that I’m lonely, but I’m quite the opposite! I am free to do whatever it is that I want at any moment. I can go ship off to Paris for a week if I feel like it, or travel to anywhere in the world if I desired (or had the funds to do so) I don’t need to tell anyone where I’m going, what I’m doing etc.
I can’t imagine what life is like for those girls who don’t go out without their SO or spend every waking moment with their significant others. I mean, I love my friends and I spend most of my time with them, but I also spend a lot of time alone reflecting on my life, and who I am. I’m able to see who I truly want to be without having anyone else’s life involved. I can truly find myself without having to make sure that my SO has the same life plans as mine.
Instead I know that wherever my life takes me, I’ll someday find what most people do, but for now, I can’t imagine being in a serious relationship and neither can some of these single girls who could careless about it.