You came into my life at a time when I really needed someone. I was vulnerable and in need of a friend and you were there. At the time I thought it was a good thing, but it turned out it wasn't. You were there when I needed someone to fill a gap, but not a day has gone by that I've missed you.
Not all of it was bad. We had some great times and some great laughs. You pulled me out of my funk, but you put me back into another one. Even looking back at all the bad, I still want to thank you.
I want to thank you because I've learned it's unhealthy to put in so much more energy than what you receive. Yes, a friendship is a type of relationship. Just like with any relationship it is a give and take. You have to put in effort; however, when one person is putting in a ton more effort than the other, it isn't healthy. It is not going to work.
I've learned not to put all of my eggs in the same basket... or in this case, put all of my trust in one friend. Because of you, I lost friends that probably would have still been around. I believed you when you told me they were not good for me. I mean, you were my best friend, why would you lie to me? I slowly distanced myself from them because I believed you when you said it was in my best interest. In reality, I realize you just wanted to make sure you had all the control.
I also learned that you can't always listen to what people say about you. You made me feel horrible about myself. You made me feel like I wasn't good enough. You made me feel worthless. I am not the person you made me out to be. I never was that person, but I think you learned that saying those things constantly eventually would break me down and I would start believing the lies. This gave you all of the power.
Even with all of the bad, I want to thank you, because now I know what a toxic friendship or relationship looks like. I'm so much more than who you made me believe I was. I now have an amazing job, and I've learned it's okay to say no. A true friend won't get mad, they will understand your other obligations and priorities. I am strong, capable, and building a spectacular life for myself that I never thought possible when you were around.
So thank you. Thank you for not being around anymore. Thank you for letting me live my life. Thank you for no longer stopping me. I know now that I will succeed and the sky truly is my only limit.
