I told you all that I would stay and not leave town for college, but then I realized that it wasn’t right for me. I needed to leave for many reasons. But that doesn’t mean that I love you any less. So I just wanted to say, I’m sorry...
I'm sorry I changed my mind. College wasn't an easy decision and you know that, but I needed a new start. And moving to a new state to go to school, gave me that. I know I said I wasn't going to, but I am so happy I left. Not because of you, I know it made things more difficult with us.
I’m sorry I don’t make time to see you every time I’m home. It’s not intentional, I promise. Sometimes it’s just hard to fit everything I want to do in three days. Between seeing my parents and family, it seems by the time I lay down to go to bed, Sunday morning is already here.
I’m sorry I don’t text you as much as I should. When I’m away I become focused in this new life I have started. I think about texting you at random moments during the day, but I no longer know your daily routine. I know that is no excuse, but I don't want to bother you.
I’m sorry you have to scroll through my new life. I know it’s not easy to watch as I post pictures and tag my new friends in posts on social media. As you start to go down on my tagged list, it does not mean I don’t remember the milestones we’ve crossed together. I will never forget you wiping my tears after my first breakup, or driving as fast as you can to my house when my dog died. Those memories will be with me forever.
I’m sorry I get jealous. This relates to the previous I’m sorry, it’s not easy for me to watch you move on either. I see you accept invites or post pictures out at some party and I know I should be there. So when I get mad at you for no reason, just remember I am trying.
I’m sorry I’m not there. You have no idea how badly it hurts when you call me upset and I can't be by your side. We've spent the last years relying on each other's help, but now I am away and unable to reach you. The only comfort I can give is over the phone. But I know we try our best.
But most of all, I’m sorry for not saying thank you enough. I am thankful for you. I forget to take a step back and thank the people who built me. There is no one else who could have helped me survive high school. Thank for making me into the person I am today. Without you I wouldn't be going through this crazy new life. And I truly appreciate everything you've done to get me here. So always remember the times we spent together. I love you.
And remember that you will be with me, wherever I go.
