To my old friend,
I have lost you now. You were once one of my best friends, but now I see you and you’re just another face on the street. We were inseparable, but now I barely know who are. The memories are all I have left of you.
I still remember all the good times we had in the past. I remember thinking you would be in my life forever, but now you’re just a distant memory. I remember the times you made me laugh, the long summer nights when we would walk around downtown and all of the road trips we had. It seems unreal that I can’t text you to see how you’re doing anymore. I can’t tell you about the crazy things that happened to me this week or listen to you talk about yours.
I understand that people drift away from each other, but I never thought it would happen to us. It still hurts me to think about how I don’t have you by my side. I get that I can’t change what happened, but how could we have gone from the best of friends to complete strangers?
We’ve come so far from where we were. We’ve developed into adults and we are becoming ourselves, and maybe that’s why we lost touch. Maybe we were too different. I guess we wanted different things and had different beliefs, but I never dreamed we would let that get in the way. There was a time when everyone thought we were going to be friends forever and that we were becoming the same person. Maybe that’s the problem. When you spend so much time with someone, you lose track of yourself and you drive yourself crazy.
Regardless of what happened, I just want you to know that if you ever need me, I'm still here for you. I understand that it will never be the same, and we’ll never be as close as we once were, but if you ever need to talk to someone, you can still trust me. No matter how different we’ve become or how far we’ve gone away, you’ll always have a place in my heart (regardless of if I want to admit it or not). If you’re ever struggling and need someone to listen with an open mind, I can still be that person.
Wherever you are in life and whatever you are doing, I hope you’re doing well. I hope you’re happy. I’ll admit there was a time that I was bitter and I wished you missed me, but I’ve gotten past that and improved myself. I now realize that we just weren’t meant to be in each other’s lives. We just ended up in different places and stupid little differences drove us apart. In the end, I just want the best for you, even if it means I'm not in your life.
No matter what happens, I’ll still be here for you if you need me because you were once one of my closest friends.
Best of luck and with love,
Jake
