Going into my senior year of college, I have no idea what I want to do.

There are less than three months left in my third year at John Jay and I would have hoped to have at least some kind of idea of where I want to go after college, and in some ways I do. I know I want to be involved with the Latinx and youth community, I want to keep writing, I want to teach people (eventually), That I want to be directly involved with the community change and / or being able to tell the stories of immigrants, survivors, and activists.

Every time I tell someone my plans or hopes, their first impression is “ be a teacher,” “ be a journalist,” “ be a news reporter,” but in the end those are all jobs that, yes can I with what I want to do, are dictated by higher politic and wealthy figures-- and I'm not going to Snuff out the truth for the benefit of the 1%.

Being able to share the truth has always been important to me, but what kind of path can this passion and love take me to?

In a lot of ways, I long for the times where picking my high schools or classes were my biggest worry. Now I feel like there’s a black, heavy cloud over my head, waiting for the right moment to drop all the rain and pressure it's been holding in.

As you read this, whether your still in college or in high school, don’t get me wrong, college has been beyond amazing and I won’t change anything for the world, but that’s a topic for another day.

Time, from the beginning of my freshman year to now, has flown in ways I cannot begin to explain. I still have no idea what post-grad has in store, and I think the worst part is all decisions are completely up to you. There’s no else telling you exactly what to do, where to apply, or what’s right for you.

As the semester is passing the halfway point and the semester threatens to end, I know that my decision isn’t (and shouldn’t) going to be taken lightly. Although there’s no one there to tell you what to do, throughout all of your classes, find that one professor or faculty that can be open with and weigh your options, because it’s the beginning of the rest of your life.

Graduate school, masters, certification, PhD, career, job, time-off, travel, uncertainty. All words that can be associated to the unknown void of the days up to gradation.

In the end, we’ll all be there and we’ll all succeed. Just remember, it’s YOUR future and YOUR choices because in the end, you’re the one who had to live with the final destination.