Transitioning is something we do a lot as "young adults." We move out; we move in; we pick up where we left off; we start over; we wonder how we ended up here; we get lost; we get found, and we watch our lives change over and over and over. We say goodbye all the time (that sometimes we just can't say it anymore).
There's a lot we just can't say, so we don't. We just move forward.
We just keep looking up and around at everyone else and let ourselves believe that we can have it together just like them.
Just like them, we can live on our own and be outgoing and handle the stress, pain, and loneliness. We can do it, but can I? Can I let go of what my life was like a month ago, a year ago, and accept that my life is not that way anymore? Can I go on changing? Can I be who I am in a completely different environment with completely different people? Can I be transformed not once, but several times?
I recently read a quote that said, "Any change even a change for the better is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts." That's reassuring. I am not going to be comfortable. I am not going to always know where I am going and who is going to be there, and I'm not always going to find happiness. As I continue to try and understand change and try to understand how I can be the person God made me to be when I feel like that person is being thrown back and forth like a ping pong ball, I'm realizing that I am called higher.
I am realizing that where I am now could change, but right now I am here, and I need to be present. I need to be where my feet are. I need to transition as they say into this new season, and I need to let go. I need to let go of the idea that I am in control. I need to let God take the steering wheel out of my hands and take me deeper and farther than I could ever walk on my own.
It sounds simple, but it's not easy.
It's not easy to let go of everything we hold onto, and it's not easy to trust.
It's not easy to look up at the mountain in front of us and down at our own feet and take the first step in whatever direction the Lord leads us. It's not easy to climb. It's not easy to turn around. It's not easy to transition when we feel like our feet haven't moved, but we have to trust our guide. We have to follow Him. We have to change. We have to let our never-changing God transform us.
As this time of transitioning still isn't comfortable, I want to encourage you to find comfort and peace in the truth that you are not alone. The Lord is guiding you. He is taking you higher than you could ever get on your own. Don't forget who you are.
