How do I have so much Faith in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ? Well, I think it's because of my disability: I have to depend on others to tend to my needs. With spirituality, I am the same way. Without assistance, I'm not able to accomplish anything on my own no matter how hard I work. Frustration would surround me, people would presume, but rather than suddenly getting in a morbid accident when you're "normal" for your whole life, then you need full assistance with everything 24/7. Brushing your teeth, getting fed every meal, needing to be changed multiple times throughout the day...It would be so easy to have so much agitation to crawl under your skin. It could affect your personality and outlook on life.
Whenever I look at my life I pray and think, "Look at the abilities of the disability. What are they? Ignore what you can't achieve and focus on what you are able to succeed." The word "can't" is forbidden by my personal trainer because he remarks, "People said you could never feed yourself before and you fed yourself a cheese stick last week." People said I would always need help bearing most of my weight entirely.
Listening to these doubts could drag me down into a deep depression, but my God heals. My God provides. My God cares. And all you need to do is accept Jesus Christ into your heart and whether it's a disease, an incurable illness, or a certain disability from birth, don't you dare listen to them! They may accuse you of being insane by hearing the Holy Spirit so clearly that they say it in a bitter tone; don't listen! Christ wants to converse with us all day long.
He speaks to me through movies, TV shows -- even the most bizarre ones. He speaks to me when I watch Full House, even. Casting Crowns' song, "Praise You in This Storm" is a great symbol for this topic. The lyrics are "I'll praise You in this storm and I will lift my hands. You are who You are no matter where I am. Every tear I've cried You hold in Your hand. You've never left my side and though my heart is torn I will praise You in this storm."
When you are going through a rough chapter in your life, it's so hard to commit to this. But you know what? If you allow Him to come into your heart, He will somehow shine His light through the hazy storm and healing will begin while He is renewing you. Sometimes the pounding rain in the raging storm is so beautiful because you know that somewhere behind the dark and hazy clouds there's sunlight. Think about that. No matter what time of the year it is or what the weather is like outside it's always the same sun in the distance. God never gives us a situation that we can't handle without Him.
Though I know that I will be detested and challenged by people about my Faith, it's totally worth it to be insulted for having such a strong belief. Why? Because nobody is stronger than my God and no one can change my mind. Until my last breath, I will always follow Christ. People can think I'm whacked out, I may get abused for my Faith at some point, but nothing and no one can make me deny Christ. I'm His and He is mine. He's my King and I'm His servant. He's my Father and I'm His son. One day is one day closer to being with the Creator in person. And I can't wait!
