Why is there such a love that is forbidden? A love that is known to be 'deceitful', a two-step story holding onto foreign bible verses. That's where the little gay boys and girls pray to be forgiven, scrapped knees on church floor pews.

Darkness surrounded unclean thoughts, dirty thoughts, broken, busted disgusting thoughts. Please God, please tell me how to love...teach me the ways out of this so called forbidden relationship with touch! Surely, I was not meant to be alone forever, and so I read the verses and prayed the prayers, hoping I would feel found again.

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all of your mind." That's what Luke says. It doesn't say speak this in one breath and then in another say that it is so called 'wrong'. The church, the church made me feel like I was home, a foreigner stuck under the devils piercing control, an outsider to Christs followers, a bigot to the queer communities cancer.

A sinner to some, a hypocrite to one. Though I happen to forget that the only opinion that matters is of the Sons. His love is what makes me love, and I surely know that that is NOT forbidden, not at all.