No one has the same heart as you. That is what you need to learn in order to survive. No one is willing to go to great lengths for you, like you would for them.
No one cares as much as you. You care about the people in your life so much that questions aren’t necessary. When someone cares about you, and I mean truly cares, they would do as much as they can to help you and be there for you. You need to stop thinking you aren’t good enough. You need to stop thinking there’s something wrong with you. You need to stop waiting for that call, text, or snapchat. You shouldn’t have to wait. It should be there when you need it. Any less than that is not worth your time or effort.
All we ever want in life is for someone to care. Someone to want the best for you. God damn, being young and feeling lost can leave you vulnerable. Vulnerable to people you think only want the best for you. You get so infatuated with a person you become blind. In your mind, you hope and think they truly care about you, but their actions will never be what you expected.
It’s not exactly this person’s fault either. It all leads back to the fact that you would drop everything for someone when they need it most. You are the person who cares and cares and just can't help it. You sit and feel empty, but no one is wondering. No one is wondering what is going on in your mind. No one is wondering if you’re having a good day as much as you’re wondering if they are.
When you feel as though your feelings mean nothing, I want to you remember that you are still growing. With growing comes finding that person to care about you the way you always wish someone had. I promise you someone out there loves and cares about you, and if you feel as if no one does, I do. You may not know me personally, but I believe you are a good person who deserves the love everyone wishes to have at least once in their lifetime.
We can sit here and talk about how we'll be fine the rest of our lives alone, but we all know that's not true. We know relationships and dating are the hardest test life can throw our way. If only humans were designed to not be able to feel. But, what thrill of life would there be? Love and hurt are polar opposites, but they are the two emotions that can turn a person's life upside down.
I am here saying this because I am ready to give up. I am ready to give up on the fact that someone does not care about me as much as I care about them, despite the circumstances. I don't want anyone to give up. As much I have felt let down, I won't give up; one day I will find the person who would go above and beyond for me, like I would for them. When that time comes, all of this abandonment and pain will be gone.
No matter what, never shrink your heart to protect yourself from pain. You have a heart big enough to protect anyone you care about; hold onto that. If you feel strongly about someone, show it. Life is too short to not love the people you love. But, if life decides to through a twist, and that person you care about doesn't care about you the same way, let it go. Let it go before it wraps its innocent hands around your neck.
No one has the same heart as you, and you'll break your own heart if you don't learn that soon, kid.