Every young woman is searching for their knight in shining armor, their prince charming, their Derek Shepherd to their Meredith Grey. Trust me, I've been at that point in my life where I just wanted Mr. Right, and I was willing to do anything to find him. I put myself out there and went around trying to sell myself to the highest bidder. I was that girl, the one that was just trying to fit in. I was the one that talked like everyone else, flirted like everyone else, dressed like everyone else because I thought if I did, boys would notice me. I worked so hard to change myself and I got to a point where I couldn't even recognize me anymore.

I found that I got a little bit more attention when I just went through the motions and acted like everyone else and I liked it. I even met a guy, after I went through countless relationships, who I thought was someone who I was going to spend the rest of my life with. Months went by, I began giving little pieces of myself to him that I would never get back like my first kiss and the first time I told someone I loved them. Months were still passing by and I began to get disgusted with myself. I wasn't paying attention in church; I was feeling unloved because I had grown so far apart from God.

I felt like everything was my fault; why couldn't I just leave this guy? I knew he was the wrong one for me; why was I so afraid of being alone? It was because I was scared to be alone, to be completely by myself. As I sat in my bed, night after night, praying for God to just give me a reason to stay with him. He laid it on my heart that we just weren't meant to be. I prayed that whole day asking for the strength to be able to end it, and I finally did. With all this extra time I had, I was spending basically every second either in the Word of God or praying; I was taking notes in church and I actually started a bible study on my own! God began to work in my life and everyone could see the difference. I stopped worrying about finding my "prince charming" and I started living for the King of Kings. Don't get me wrong, I still talk to God about boys, but now I am praying for my future husband. Praying that he will lead the household, love me and live his life the way God calls him to.

All girls are looking high and low for that perfect guy, for that relationship everyone will say "goals" about and for that one thing that will fill this little hole in their hearts. I'm here to tell you, it will never work. Do you want to know why? That little hole in your heart is a shape only God can fit in to, it's a "God-sized" hole. God is the only person that can love you in the way you need to be loved.

Our Father in Heaven loves us with a profound and unconditional love. He loves us no matter the mistakes, the sins and the rebellion. He loves us with an agape love or a "1 Corinthians 13" love. Did you know that if you do not love then you don't know God, or if you don't know God then you do not love? God is love and the only way to love others is to first love God. Which I don't understand why you wouldn't love Him... He literally died to profess his undying love for you...What man would ever do that? Exactly, that's why you can't look for a man to fill that God-sized hole in your heart.

Just in case you have never read 1 Corinthians 13...

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.⁸ Love never fails." - 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

I pray that each of you will be able to realize that only God will be able to love you like this. There will always be a God-sized hole in your heart if you don't understand this and begin to live by it. You will go through relationship after relationship if you don't come to love God first. Relationships never work without God, He must be the center of it or else you're just dating for the wrong reasons and God isn't going to let you stay in that situation. I mean why would a God who sent His only Son to die for all of us allow you to just love someone else before Him? Just like it's really hard for a father to let his daughter date... A father doesn't want to see his little girl getting hurt, he doesn't want her fragile heart to be broken.

Just like your earthly father, our Heavenly Father loves us and protects us. You are God's princess and His daughter. He hates when you're heart is broken. I pray you will begin to see how much love and affection He has for you and put Him first in your life. Once you do that, everything else will fall into place. You will see your life, your peers and yourself in a whole different light. Then God will start to work in your life and put people there that will fill your life with so much joy! I'm praying for each and everyone of you, even if I don't know you personally.

Remember have faith, love God and be fearless.