Most of the time, I am very sure of who I am. Admittedly, I'm not always very confident in myself, but I have gotten pretty good at "faking it until I make it." By this, I mean that if I pretend as though I am very confident, I start to actually become that way. In all actuality, I have become fairly confident. But there are still some days when I do not feel quite myself. I'm here to talk about how that feels. It's when I leave my home in a new outfit and I put extra effort into my hair. I feel great about myself all day, until I come home and look in the mirror only to see what is wrong. I parted my hair too far to the side. Were the bags under my eyes this dark all day? Maybe this sweater didn't look very nice with these jeans. I started the day feeling beautiful, and I went to bed feeling like a stranger to my own body. It is when I worked very hard on a presentation to give in class, and become nervous once I stood in front of the room. I forgot some of the things that I wanted to say, and I am sure that my shaky knees were very noticeable. I don't know if it was just me, but it sounded as though people didn't clap as much as they did for the other presentation. It is when I get a grade slightly lower than what I was hoping for, and I feel like the feeling of failure is setting out the map for the rest of my life. I didn't ace the biology exam, so does that mean that I am going to fail the class, lower my gpa, that I will never get the job that I am working hard for? Of course not. Even though I know that I am doing my best, that people like me, and I like myself too, there are still times when I forget those things and do not feel like myself at all. The best thing that I can possibly do for myself at these times is to remember that the way that I feel is self created. I must see the world around me in a different way. remember the other presentations given before mine. I know that my mind wandered quite a bit during the presentations, and use introspection to assume others did the same. No matter how the different presentations went, everybody received the same level of polite applause. I know that I am letting the nervous feeling from standing in front of a group of people get to my head, and that I am only paranoid that my presentation went poorly. This is just one example of a time where I try to use introspection and realistic thinking to calm my nerves. In order to be happy and comfortable with myself and my life in the way that I normally am, I must remind myself that in situations where I feel insecure and nervous I am not seeing things for what they truly are.
Health and WellnessAug 15, 2016
For Days When You Don't Feel Quite Yourself
Sometimes the ups and downs of life can be confusing.
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