Move in day is great and so full of cheer. You are ready to start the next chapter. Have a room to yourself and be your own. Be with your friends and feel more like an adult.

Now once the decor is up, the room set up, clothes are away, and you feel ready. Then you get hungry and have to figure it out yourself because your dad isn't there to cook or bring home your favorite meal.When its bedtime and you get ready to sleep reality steps in. The quietness of the room reminds me that I miss my brother screaming at his games. I see the darkness and remember my brothers glare from his television. Now I can't sleep without recreating the light while I imagine his screams so I can sleep.

I cant sleep well because I miss talking to my mom before bed. Or getting texting my grandma before I sleep. When I leave home my family tries to give me space to readjust but I miss my routine and need it to smoothly adjust.

I wake up the next morning and miss my bed at home. Miss my family but I'm a adult I have to be strong. That's what I thought but what I've learned is with me personally I need my family to ease my anxiety of dealing with the bad memories that I associate with college. So I am done hiding from all the pain I talk about it and feel better. You can be an adult and have to call your mommy to let some stuff off your chest.

I am an adult and I have issues. The best part of being a adult is dealing with what you have to instead of letting it bottle up and take over your life. What I've learned is that having a great support system is the best thing in the world.

I love my family.