I'm a person that keeps to myself. I always have been and somehow you got through that. It was hard for me to let my walls down, but for you, I felt like I would do anything. You were the first person to really try to get to know me when I moved to Indy. You were a lot of firsts for me. That's something I can honestly say that I don't regret. I loved what we had together and I love the friendship that we still have now. You've been there for me through the toughest times of my life. You stuck by my side through my absolute worst and I can't thank you enough for that.

I loved how simple things were with you. I never felt like I had to be someone else with you. I was always so comfortable. I think it has to do with who you are as a person. I have yet to meet someone as confident and put together yet so silly nor have I met someone who has treated me with the utmost respect regardless of how I was acting towards you. I'll never forget the nights we spent just laying in bed watching "American Dad" and talking about life (only taking breaks for you to sing along to every single song on "American Dad" which always made me laugh) or how you always felt the need to repeatedly tell me that my face was extremely close to your nipple when I'd lay my head on your chest. It was the little things like that, that made me most happy when I was around you.

We didn't really throw labels on what we had and that's something I enjoyed. It took away some of the pressures surrounding labels which I felt like we both needed at the time. I remember the first time one of your friends asked if I was your girl and you just casually told him I was. I also remember how your cousin repeatedly called me your girlfriend at Hankfest and we both just kept giving each other looks while you tried not to laugh at how he was making fun of me for laughing at everything. It probably wasn't anything out of ordinary or super special for you, but for me, it meant quite a bit. I still get a stupid grin thinking about the little things you did that wouldn't mean a lot to other people, but meant a lot to me.

I haven't really talked to you recently about how I feel towards you. I'd be lying if I said I was completely over you. That's going to take time, but you're still one of my best friends. That's something I don't want to change. There's so much I feel that I need to thank you for (even though I know you'd probably tell me that I didn't need to), but that could take awhile to get out. You showed me what it was like to trust someone outside of my family wholeheartedly and I'm forever grateful for that. I've had plenty of days where I needed someone and you were always there no matter what to make sure I got the help I needed whether it be letting me stay at your house or coming over to talk when you knew I had a bad day.

I can't say that I've had someone else in my life that has had such an impact on me in the way you have. You brought me out of my shell and introduced me to some pretty amazing people that I might not have met otherwise. All in all, I'm glad that I thought you were some cute guy I had a few classes with and added you on Facebook...and then followed you on Instagram...but hey, that led to you asking for my Snapchat and us making a damn good friendship out of something that could have been left at nothing. Even though we couldn't work out a relationship, mainly due to our completely opposite tastes in food, I'm glad that we had something going when we did and I'm glad that you've stuck around. You've become such an important person in my life. I hope that's something that never changes because you were the first man I trusted with everything.