You will have moments in life when you simply want to fall apart. Thinking to yourself, this is the absolute lowest point; however, no one is ignorant enough to believe that this moment will be your last heartbreak, your last time failing at something, your last very terrible, no good day. We will have our days presenting false smiles and fake laughs while discussing trivial topics. These feelings are not mutually exclusive to any one individual, but that is not to say during these occurrences we don't feel unbelievably alone. When we confide in others, in spite of them going through perhaps a similar ordeal, we claim that they will never truly understand which is honestly kind of true. As individuals, all of our experiences are so unique to who we are. Our diverse life stories are not always relatable in the way we wish they were.
Currently, I am going through an agonizing experience. I have lost someone in my life who was my partner, confidant, and best friend. They understood me in a way that most people never did. I ruined something out of necessity in order to be fair to myself and others. Just because an instance is self-inflicted doesn't mean it won't be painful. Transitions whether unexpected or expected can be tough to cope with; that is just how life works.
With this said, there are ways to make life a little bit easier. As I was walking through my college campus, Ohio University, wiping the tears from my eyes, I noticed something beautifully breathtaking: fireflies. There were fireflies blanketing the grass on College Green with this stunning yellow glow. Something about nature presenting itself so calmly around me in contempt of the storm brewing in my head made me feel secure. If the world can still possess these moments, no matter the destruction society pushes upon, then perhaps I can too.
We have choices in life. My mother would always say to me, "We can't choose what happens to us, but we can choose how we respond to it." As I grow up, this rings true more than anything. It is okay to have days when nothing feels okay, but after the appropriate amount of despair, you can choose to find those positive special moments in life. Those small moments can bring even the slightest glimmer of hope that pushes you to move forward, because we have to move forward in life.
