Do you ever look around and find yourself lost? Not literally, but you just can't see who you are anymore.

You catch yourself doing things you know are wrong, but you continue to do them because they make you feel a little better. The things you usually do to help yourself, that make you happy, you try leaning back to them but they just aren't doing the trick anymore. No matter what you do, nothing is helping, but you know you want to go back to your natural self, that so many important people love about you.

No matter what is happening in your life. Try and find the positives. Yeah, it's easier said than done. It's a new year, the cliché "New Year New Me" crap is getting old and honestly is overused. Every year has 12 months that could be your new beginning, your start to your happy life. The process is long and harder said than done, but once the one foot is out and started, the process is so worth it.

As a girl growing up (still), I learned so many things the hard way. Not until I had my mental breakdown did I realize all of the things that just continue to build up wasn't worth it anymore, everything that I had building up inside me finally collapsed and so did I. Never think it's "easier" or "better off" to keep everything in, to just yourself and not think about it. Talking to people isn't a burden, it's the best thing for you and the ones who love you. Nobody ever said life would be easy, ever. Nobody can fully prepare you for the world and for your life. It's everyone's world but it's your life and you need to live it how you want. There will be many bumps along the way. You will be put in hard situations, but you just need to remember who you are and how you were raised. Instantly, the bad choices should leave your head.

Unfortunately, I did not have them leave my head. Instead, I fell deeply into something I didn't want to. They say it takes time to find the real you. Listen to them carefully, and believe every word they tell you. I am almost 20 years old, and I'm still trying to find myself, the real me.

Take the time to detoxify your life. Cleaning out my social media accounts, deleting all the pictures in my phone, and dropping all of the people that have hurt me or have no meaning in my life—this was the greatest start to my 2019 life.

Start small and work up.