Last year around this time of year I lost myself. I was unhappy and I wasn't the person I wanted to be. I lost a sense of who I was and what my morals were.
I thought I would never snap out of it then I realize that I was stronger than what I was going through. My best friends betrayed me and that's when I realized I had to pick myself up by myself, for myself.
My friends were hanging out with people that hurt me and bullied me and made me feel that they didn't value my feelings. I was in an incredibly toxic relationship and once I got out of it I thought my friends would encourage me more.
It ended up being a sinking ship with my friends and they were actually bringing me down more. The guy I was in a toxic relationship with made me feel that I wasn't good enough for anyone including myself. He manipulated me and brought me down to a point I became extremely vulnerable.
I finally met someone now who makes me extremely happy and loves the person I am. Moral of it all, you must love yourself and find out who you really are before you can be completely happy.
You have to reach a dark point to realize how strong you are. It's definitely tough going through betrayal but once you get out of it all you'll find a new happiness. You become a little selfish but sometimes you have to be in order to find yourself and making yourself happy is most important to your well being.