Why do some of us feel an overbearing amount of guilt even years after we have sinned? Is it because we are incapable of letting go of the hurt we have caused others? Is it because we think the mistakes of our past will give others a reason to define us? How do we relieve ourselves of this torturous thought that gains an exhausting amount of power over us?

This guilt is caused by the fact that we have not forgiven ourselves. Natural insecurities have gained control of the way we internalize our reflections. We feel we must fix the chaos we have created in someone else's world. We have not developed a love for ourselves that erases the concern of who we used to be.

We dwell on what is not in our hands anymore, rather than what we can currently change. We have this never-ending need to settle previous animosity. We tend to think deeply into things that have lost meaning. We develop the urges to reach out to people who have created FURY in our hearts, because we put the blame on ourselves. We allow the thoughts to continue even when they turn in an unpleasant direction.

We must acknowledge that we have suffered and we have caused sufferings. This is expected. We have had our hearts broken, and we have also broken the hearts of others. This is expected. We must accept the fact that we cannot change who we were, and the decisions we have made that led us to who we are today. There should be appreciation in our sins because, without them, growth would not be evident. Lessons would not have surfaced. Minds would not be increasingly stronger.

Personally, I have not been able to escape guilt. It has followed me like a gigantic shadow. My past friendships still haunt me because I feel as though I am responsible for the unnecessary arguments that have led to our downfall. I attempted to find ways to eliminate this from my thought process, and this is what I have held onto in the midst of my mind desiring to destroy me: