Coming to college was one of the best things for me that has ever happened. At home I have always try to be selfless and kind and giving without out a word of regret. Though this made me very happy and made me grow as a person it also made me grow standing still. I wasn't going anywhere being the way I was and I wasn't learning anything about myself. All I knew about myself was the things I would say when asked on a "Getting to know you" form I was always handed at the beginning of each class of high school. I always wrote down the same hobbies of reading and writing, and the fact that I had anxiety, and that I was shy so please for the love of mercy have pity on me and don't make me speak out loud in class.
Overtime I never really noticed anything wrong with the way I was living and the fact that my anxiety kept me from doing so many things. It was like I was "safe" and planted in my routines and I didn't wish to stray from them. Keeping my nose in a book instead of going out with my friends kept me from experiencing a lot of things too. I had a few good friends in high school and I still keep in touch with them even though we do not go to the same college.
Coming to UNC Asheville I felt like I was searching for something and it wasn't till a few weeks ago that I figured out that the thing I was searching for was me. I've noticed a change in myself and I can say that it is a good change. I am not shy anymore and I actually enjoy talking to people and being the first one to spark up a conversation. I don't mind sharing my thoughts in class or going during office hours to get help from my professors. I find myself engaging in activities that I normally wouldn't have before. I also don't sit in my room all day and read and watch TV. I only read before I go to sleep so I have more time to do homework or go out with my friends. I have come to the point of my anxiety where it does not control me anymore and it barely even bothers me.
I'm starting to find myself and even though I don't know exactly who I am yet I know I'm going to like her.
