As I enter into the foreign world of adulting, I often find that what I once thought was hectic is nothing compared to my life now. Most of the time, all I want is a moment to slow down, to stop trying to write a paper, to not have to study, to not have to call people on the phone and actually talk to them. A moment to just rest. Taking a class at Union this month just adds to that. It feels like those two weeks I got to spend at home were just a tease. Now I'm thrown back into the craziness of college. It feels like I haven't had a moment to breathe for months.
In the midst of all the things clamoring for my attention day in and day out, I can become so future-focused. And not in a goal-making, life-changing, like-a-boss way. I get caught up in everything that I have to do and the things I should've done yesterday and what I must accomplish if I want to be a success in life and if I really want to do all of this. The weight of it sometimes threatens to crush me. My not-so-certain future consumes me. I'm so fixated on what could be, that I forget to appreciate what is.
As I was walking back to my dorm from my lab class today, I looked around at my sunny surroundings and thought, as I often do, what a beautiful campus we have. As I admired the trees crowned in gorgeous green, and smiled at the grass alight with the glow of the sun's rays, I couldn't help but say a prayer of thanks to God for His creation. I'm taking an anatomy course this month, and man let me tell you, the human body is freaking complex. So many structures and processes and functions and complicated mechanisms; trying to understand it all can be enough to make you lose your mind. But dude, all those little intricacies, all the elaborate systems that make up the human being, they were carefully handcrafted by our loving Creator. And I think that is so cool. And He didn't just make us, He created a whole world that's just as intricate as we are. The tree that just looks like bark and leaves has millions of cells with amazing functions. A single brain cell contains more advanced systems than many of our computers.
When you think about it, God didn't have to make such a wonderful world. But He did. For us. For our pleasure, and for our benefit. This world is full of countless things to learn and figure out and explore and wonder at. He has filled our world with wonder, and if that isn't something that just makes you happy, I don't know what to tell you.
Sometimes we lose sight of how beautiful life is because we focus so much on the ugliness; we become so transfixed in the monotony that we forget the miracle all around us. Don't let yourself block out God's Design. He made it for you. So revel in it, and let it interrupt your normally scheduled program every once in a while.
