I am not afraid of death. I’m not afraid of the last breath I breathe. Why? Because I have the hope and know where I’ll be. When you lose someone you miss everything, all the little things. The little things they did to make you smile, the things they accomplished or simply their physical appearance. You remember that old loud beat up truck they drove that you couldn’t stand. You remember the clothes they would wear, the style they had and the music they listened too. All the things that when you look at an everyday person don’t seem like a big deal. But when they are gone, those little things are the big things you remember. The things you hold on to. The most important thing you have to remember them. To keep them to your closest memory, to picture them.
You see losing someone hurts and it tears that piece of your heart out, but I’ll tell you something that will fill your heart and make it complete to the uttermost. And that one thing that fills that broken heart is greater than any earthly object, or any human thing, it goes on and on and lasts forever. Someone that never gives up on you, someone that will never go away and someone that will always go in place of that emptiness taking over that causes you to want to give up. That one thing is Jesus.
He takes that one little hole in your heart and fills it with a love that will never cease to exist. He shows His love to you and in return you can't help but to fall in love with Him and who He is everyday. You fall deeper in love with how good He is and how He deeply desire to take your broken heart and restore it with joy. That hole is something natural things will never fill, but the one thing that will give you such thrill. He has been with you through it all, waiting for you. Waiting like a groom waits for His bride.
What we have to understand is God is always there and will always be there no matter how far away you are from Him. Just repent -- which simply means to change or to turn around. Run back to Him and you are right back in line with were you were the first time. If you have never accepted God into your life and believed in Him, then you can have that same opportunity if you just run to Him, and say, "God, I need you! God, I want you!" He will let you come in with arms wide open!
He is how you deal with that pain, hurt and disappointment this world (or should I say Devil) has caused you. The Devil will try and blind the eyes, but I tell you, once your eyes are opened and you become truly aware of who God is and what He did for you, you’ll never turn back. I have fallen so madly in love with the Father and He keeps filling my heart with love, and I pray that love seeps off of me. I want to be Christ-like. I want to be an image of God. I want the love of God to radiant off of me like a beaming light. Attracting everything I come in contact with.
I want the world to feel this love, this love that once you have encountered you’ll never be the same. His depth of love is so deeper than any human word can describe. It’s truly indescribable. Something you feel you never deserve. But I tell you, that is God. He gave so much to us, so much that we never deserved because He loves us that much.
You always hear about God’s love, but once you truly have an encounter with God’s love, you will fall back on that every time. You will live off of that one moment and the many love encounters you have every day. Some of them may not be as big, but trust me they mean more to me than anything! It’s the little thing the Lord does for you to make you fall deeper in love with Him.
Jesus died on the cross to take our pain, bruises, our iniquities, our sickness, anything you can imagine he took that. He made that sacrifice so we don’t have to! Jesus hurts more than we could ever hurt, loves more than we could ever love. The bruises you have and the thing that you have on in the inside of you that no one can see, Jesus took. He took that hurt so we don’t have to.
And, in return He replaced all of that with love.
The reason behind it all is love.
And, now when I look at John 3:16 that’s all I can think about. What love? What love is it that God would send His one and only son that we might (not even we will) be saved and have everlasting life.
God didn’t force me to choose Him. He’s such a respectful Father and He will never force you into anything and never pressure you into living for Him. Rather, it’s a choice it’s an option we make to truly surrender ourselves.
I just really want to pull out that a piece of John 3:16 and analyze it real quick. “He sent His son, so that we might be saved.” God didn’t know if anyone would accept. Rather He would have still sent His son even if only one came to know him.
Even if just one person gave their life to Him.
He would have done it for just me.
And once you grab a hold of that realization, you become aware of His love.
His never ending love.
