It’s okay to not be okay

To be truly, deeply not okay

And to admit certain people make you not okay.

It’s okay to say an environment makes you not okay -

It doesn’t matter who causes it,

Or where it is,

Denying that those things make you not okay

Is not okay.

Be it friends, family, strangers

Home, school, new places

It is never okay to make someone feel not okay.

But it is okay to say being with or around certain people

Makes you not okay.

It is okay to say you can never find happiness while in a certain place.

But it is never okay to stand in the way

Of someone’s okay.

It is okay to start over

It is okay to survive

It is okay to live by leaving

That person

That place

Those people.

It is okay to put yourself first.

At the end of the day it is not okay

To hurt yourself by staying.

It will, however, always be okay

To take care of yourself

Despite them saying it’s not okay.

But it is not okay to stay with someone

Or somewhere

You only become more not okay.

It is not okay to apologize for your unhappiness

And it is not okay to apologize for their actions.

There comes a point

Where you must stop apologizing

And excusing

Someone else deliberately hurting you.

You are your priority

Not their feelings

Not that place

And that is okay

Although they might say it’s not okay.

That place might make you feel trapped

But sometimes the grass really is greener

For you

On the other side,

The sun really does

Shine brighter

On the other side

For you.

And that is okay.

There will always be toxic people

And places

In your life,

And that is okay.

What is not okay

Is letting them win -

Staying,

Not fighting for yourself.

Some things you will always be better off without,

And that is OKAY.

Forgiving yourself is okay

You don’t need forgiveness from anyone else.

Growing stronger than that person

That situation

Putting yourself back together

No matter how hard they try to

Shatter you

And walking away

Maybe limping

But still walking

Is a symbol of growth and fortitude

It shows your battle scars

It shows you are better than that struggle

And that is the most okay part of all.

Praying for anyone who needs it, xo