There are obstacles I face
every single day
that are bundled together in a shoe lace
that are thrown at me constantly
I feel this wall of pressure
that i have no control over
i'm loosing myself
in my own head
they said you can change it
but it's shut so tight
I don't know what I'm good at anymore
I left everything behind to pursue my dream
that dream feels impossible
for all the obstacles in the way
I miss home so much
i don't care about the drama
i miss my friends
who always tell me the cold hard truth
i miss the beach
the wind was all i could hear
i made a new friend
and went on the best date
i feel hopeless
i feel my identity was stripped away from me
i don't know what i'm good at anymore
i have no contribution to this life
maybe i'm overthinking this
maybe this is all an illusion
and if it is,
so God help me.