calendar:
every day,
9:30 p.m. on the dot.
ding ding ding ding.
put 40 mg
on your tongue.
swallow.
space them out.
space them out?
one day without
can’t hurt.
a few days without
can’t hurt.
can’t hurt?
it hurt.
now you’re at the bottom of a hole
you dug — you’ve been digging —
there’s goddamn fingernails in the walls
and in the dirt.
but wait,
there’s more.
creak crack FUCK
fall.
it’s so much deeper than you thought.