I've loved reading as long as I can remember. Along the way, I steadily picked up drawing and playing video games. In middle school, I realized that I also did enjoy writing outside of standard schoolwork.

I remember spending lunches in high school reading with a sandwich on my favorite bench before heading over to the library and working on a sketch. I remember getting home from school and throwing my backpack in my room before settling down with my favorite video game for a while. I remember making meticulous edits with inside jokes on my writing project into the wee hours of the night because I had no idea how to continue the plot (to be honest, I'm still not sure).

As I wrapped up high school though and started having more difficulties with proper time management to ensure I wouldn't be working on an assignment at three in the morning on a school night, I started drifting from these things I liked to do so much. Even now I don't find myself with that much free time, but when I do, I don't utilize it.

Netflix is great and all, but it's not what I want to do all the time. I also want to experience stories written by other people which can then serve as an inspiration to create my own things. If that's the case, then why is it that I can't bring myself to get up and do those things instead of continuing to lie on my bed?

I think a lack of ideas definitely contributes to this conundrum, but at the same time, I must also admit that I'm probably on my phone more than I should be. More often than not, I'm on social media looking at memes that I've likely seen many times before. If I'm tired, then I'll be napping instead.

While I can still relax this way, I get sad when I look at an unread book or open an unfinished project on my computer. I still have an interest in my hobbies, but sometimes they feel more like a chore than a fun way to pass the time.

I've definitely made progress this year in easing myself back into them because I get the feeling that rushing will just create more distance. Life can be difficult, so it's important to have outlets where one can express themselves.