Something that has weighed heavily on my mind lately is the topic of faith. Realistically, we all struggle with our faith one way or another. Hard lessons have had to be learned and are still being learned when it comes to my faith. Trusting God in the silence seems utterly impossible sometimes. You wonder why after the many begging sessions for Him to listen and speak why He hasn't yet. I don't have all the answers, nor will I ever proclaim to. Let me tell y'all something though; faith is the most important thing in this world. To have faith like Job is amazing and something I strive for. Job is my favorite Book of the Bible by far. It contains themes that I struggle with daily, but man is it important.
As I have said before, poetry is a huge outlook for me. I know that many people struggle with their faith from time to time, especially in what we call the silence. I wrote a poem entitled: "Faith In The Silence.". The name is exactly what it entails. I wrote it during a time when I felt God was silent and I was not very faithful. When seasons like that come, I re-read this poem over and over to remind myself to keep this same outlook. Hopefully, y'all relate, and maybe you are going through a time like this where God feels silent. I feel you. Keep pushing and stay true to the faith. It's all worth it in the end.
Faith In The Silence
(By Madison Jones)
I call out your Name and I beg for an answer,
From my mind to my heart I beg you to transfer.
Give me the wisdom and give me the strength,
Without You life does not make much sense.
I plead with You to show me Your ways,
When all my thoughts unravel day after day.
Fighting my mind and my heart and feeling alone,
Agony is displayed through my whispers that I moan.
Can you hear me, Can you see me? What do I do?
How do I continue on when my patience is few?
Playing the waiting game as I figure out Your intent-
Who am I to question what You have sent?
Did you not promise to be with me every day of my life?
Why do I even worry about incoming strife?
I know you are with me for those were Your words,
Even though I cannot see You I see you through Your works.
Your marvelous and wonderful truths that give me peace of mind,
Even on the days when the words that escape from my lips aren't so kind.
Doubtful, Sinful, Lacking in the Fruits of the Spirit,
Yet you cover me in Your blood and you rescue me from the pit.
Never once do I deserve the answers I even seek,
Yet I tremble at your power and I sit with the meek.
Remembrance of your Name over mine snaps me back in reality,
It brings back a sense of perception and normality.
Fatality wins over rationality when hope begins to fade,
Yet faith in Jesus Christ is something I'll never trade.