It's almost time for back to school. Which means I will be getting ready for all my memories. The good, bad, horrendous, and the amazing.
Throughout the last two years at Stevenson University I have made many memories. From the first week as a freshman with all the events that were held in our honor. Those were the good days. Then I have the first week of school with my classes, meeting new friends, being away from home and missing my family (while pretending i didn't). Trying to be an adult like everyone says we are supposed to be.
Then I have my other memories, the ones i store in my Pandora box, De'Asia's box, here are my memories of freshman year November to be exact when i lost my older brother Franklin who I miss dearly. That memory never really goes away. It's hard to brace yourself for it because you know its coming. Never late. So you think of the good memories like first encounter, last words, their voice and love. But none of that prepared you for the final memory. Well you never will be, its what I've learned in the last two years. But the worst ones aren't about him they are worse my life without him. Me crying, the phone calls received and made, the funeral, the after math of losing someone I love. The destructive path it led me on. The depression that took over me. I dug a hole and made myself at home. I eventually climbed out of said hole but not mentally. I focused on my grades but left my emotions un-cared for. Which made me worse down the line.
Then came sophomore year... well this was a really tough year I would rather not be reminded of so lets skip this one. For those who know me they will understand and for those who don't I can revisit it at a later date.
This junior year will be my year; now I'm not saying nothing bad will happen or that I will ace all my classes. I wont say that because it creates unnecessary stress for me that I don't need so lets not speak that into the world. I will say this I will be happy, I will be healthy mentally and physically , and I will handle everything life has for me with the help of my amazing support system.
Some advice I have for anyone reading is don't let anything keep you down.
