I've questioned myself multiple times on whether or not I make the right decisions. In most cases, the problems that life throw at us are not like a math test at all, as in there isn't just a correct answer.
Growing up, my parents strove to build (like any other parent) strong morals within my sister and I. Whether it'd be the proper way to act around people, how to treat others, or what to do when we were facing decisions, they've shared their opinion and taught us what they believe in. One attribute that they stressed on was that when it came to making decisions, family always comes first. In other words, we always thought about what would be the best decision that would benefit the whole entire family. And for me, family includes my friends too.
When it comes to friendships, I've always been one to strive to give 110%. I try to always be completely and whole-heartedly there for my friends because hey, I love them haha. Whether it be someone they need to rant to, or someone they need a favor from, or someone they could get some advice from (even though usually I may not be the best at those lol), or plainly someone they could trust with anything, I always want to be there for everyone. Unfortunately, while some say that it's great that I'm trying to be there for everyone, others also say that that is my greatest flaw. I mean, many would just say that "Jess. You're a pushover." And it's true. With this kind of mindset towards me friendships, I've been physically exhausted and I've gotten emotionally hurt too.
But you know what? At the end of the day, I always come to terms with the fact that I'm just that type of person who always tries to give 110% into a friendship. Because the best reward is knowing that that my friends are happy and having a good time. I know I know, I sound like a mother and yeah, I won't deny it. It's true what they say, I'm Mama Jess lol.
So regardless of any favor that a friend asks, no matter how complicated the problem is, my decision will always be to try to be there for my extended family, friends included. Call it stupidity (and I personally do too), but hey, my priority is to always be there for others. Love you all!
