I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for claiming to love me but truly not loving me the way that I deserve to be loved. I honestly can say that once we broke up, I hated you more than I hated anyone. Including my sperm donor, which is a lot.

I hated you so much that I woke up every day waiting to read something about you being in an accident and didn’t make it. I know, that may make me heartless, but that is fine with me. I could never beat you at that, even so.

I can honestly say that after this article, I do not hate you. I do not regret anything. I do not miss you. I do not love you. I do not want anything to do with you. I don’t hate you anymore, just for the simple fact that I have moved on with my life and I don’t have time to remember you and the things you put me through for almost two years. I don’t care anymore. I am over it. I guess that the saying “time heals everything” is so true. I am healed. I am so much more of a human being now than I was when our breakup was fresh.

I have finally learned to let go of my past issues with relationships. I am now ready to give my husband 1000% of me and not just 100% of me. I am ready to trust him, I am ready to believe in him. I will always be jealous, just for the simple fact that I am scared of him finding someone better than me. I just have to learn to let go. It won’t be easy, trust me, but I will learn to let go of the things that I’ve put him through.

After letting someone ruin me so much and letting them have so much control over my mind and my happiness, I realized that it is mentally exhausting. It’s total mental abuse and it sucks. It has scarred me, it has me so sensitive that I sometimes question the person that I am and why I became that person; or the fact that I let myself down by becoming that person.

No one deserves the kind of break up that will tear you apart and turn you into someone that you are not and never thought of being. But then again, I guess that kind of break up will teach you something and will make you become someone 10x the person you are, make you a stronger and more eye opening.

We will always have that one ex that never loved us.