With finals coming up it seems that everyone has entered a perpetual state of gloominess. I can sympathize school is hard and everyone is just kind of over it. However, while some people just aren’t feeling it, others have totally lost it running around like finals are literally the end of the world.
I’ve just found myself wondering how much college actually makes or breaks us. Maybe I’ve just become totally delusional or cracked out as I usually say, but I just don’t think that we can’t recover from the mistakes we make now.
I used to stress an unhealthy amount over anything school related, thinking I had to be perfect to have a happy life later on. After failing some tests and falling on flat on my face in every way, I realized that I’m still standing and I still like my life. I remember thinking that if I did badly in school or said the wrong thing, my life would be over.
Fast forward to now and I have done both of those things more than once. I’m still surviving, even if just barely, and I really wish that I hadn’t stressed so much. Life just kind of happens and there’s a lot of it that we can’t control. What’s the point in going insane over trying to bend the ways of the universe to our will?
At the end of the day, some things just aren’t going to go our way. It sucks, but that’s just how it goes for everyone. I think that my generation especially thinks that the world owes us something. We’re always looking for someone else to blame, but sometimes we are the only people to blame and other times there’s no one to blame at all.
I just think that the constant pity party thing is a little overrated. And I’m not saying that I’m above it all like I’ve never eaten an entire box of macarons while crying and watching Gossip Girl until three in the morning.
I’m just saying that maybe instead of having a funeral for my hopes and dreams every time I get upset, I should try to just look past it. Because in reality what I thought was the worst has happened, as I’m sure it has to so many other people, and I’m still thriving (kind of).
Without all of the lame things that happen to us, how would we be able to recognize the really awesome things? I think it’s easier to accept the bad and look forward to the good.
There’s probably a whole series of unfortunate events come my way in the future, but there are probably some really amazing things in there too. So, while finals are stressful and college is a big deal let’s just try to remember that we have a lot to look forward to.