I used to listen to "emo" music when I was younger, but loved all genres so I veered away a bit. After my second brother died I became numb. Honestly the only thing that would save me from my own scary thoughts was the band Fall Out Boy. Every single album I would just listen to on repeat. At this time they had just dropped a new album in 2015 after their 3 year blip so I had new lyrics to explore and get angry to. Most of the people that are in my every day life know I really love them as a band, but most probably don't know how much they saved me day in and day out. I'm not sure if my sister and I are the only ones who have an artist that does so much for us.

They are the only thing keeping me sane right now.

I like to think I have an open mind, but I will never understand a human that doesn't need music in their life. It has brought me out of my darkest hours. It has been there at my happiest moments in life. Every lyric, every beat, every melody just hits every part of your being.

"& my back has been breaking from this heavy heart. We never seemed so far. I'm hopelessly hopeful, you're just hopeless enough, but we never had it at all"

"So wear me like a locket around your throat I'll weigh you down, I'll watch you choke. You look so good in blue"