I really want to give a shout out to the those people who really have their life together, who know what they want to do for the rest of their lives and are excited to do it. Yes, I do have a job lined up and I kind of know what I want to do when I “grow up” but by no means am I excited for it. I really don’t want to leave college right now, I want to keep learning but at the same time, I kind of feel like I am ready to go.

Once I graduate, I have no clue what I am going to do with my degree. I am going to work a post-grad internship at Disney World, which I am very excited about. But after that, if I am not offered full-time employment, I really have no clue what I am going to do. That terrifies me.

Should I go back to school to get a masters, should I get a teaching certification, should I just work? All the options are on the table, but all of them scare the crap out of me. I do want to go back right away? Should I wait? I really don’t have the answers to these questions.

This is why I envy the kids that have it all figured out. They know what they want, and they go for it. I wish I had that luxury. It could be me as a person, because I am incredibly indecisive. But I feel like there is more than just that. I just wish I had a solid plan that I could follow and execute well.

Another thing I envy about the people that have their lives together is that they are excited to move on from school. I am not, at all. I feel like this is a place where I can still figure out what I want to do and how I am going to do it. Once I graduate I’m out in the real world, and that scares me. I am not good at cooking or cleaning or managing my life for that matter. College really doesn’t teach you to live outside of school rather it only teaches you how to get a job. It acts as a transition phrase and I really appreciate that, but I wish I take a class on how to survive by myself after school. But you can’t have your cake and eat it too, right?