A couple weeks ago I saw a picture where it said "2017 broke me, 2018 opened my eyes, 2019 I am coming back" and I began to think how accurate this represents me. Though when I look back of the last two years I think how much I have grown. Before coming to college I had this doubt that I would become a failure because I felt as if I could never live up to be my cousins. My cousins are 4.0 students, have travelled around the world, and are seen as intelligent, independent, strong woman which of course they are. I have always looked up to them and they have helped me become the person I am today. Though the thought of not 'turning out' like them and being seen as a disappointment killed me. All of 2018 I had no idea I motivated myself to make my family rather than myself.