Emptiness
He’s supposed to be your biggest hero
Your biggest supporter
And the one man who would never let you down
He’s supposed to catch your tears from falling and be there for you in every way
And that’s the crippling and earth shattering thing
In my case, he’s not
He’s one of my biggest let down’s
He’s made me cry a river of tears and was absent for the majority of my life
That’s what makes it so hard to get out of bed some mornings
He’s one of my creators, yet he has destroyed me like no other
Fire burns down my throat as I skeptically say “I love you too” as we greet each other
Obliviously ignoring clear signs that nothing will ever change
He’ll never fill the emptiness that resides within me
He’ll never say that he’s proud of me, or that I look beautiful with no makeup on
Which is such a damn shame…
That daddy is always supposed to make everything better
But for me, he makes everything worse.
-C.G.