As if being a girl with a million emotions isn’t hard enough, try being a “Zayn-girl.” What’s a Zayn-girl you ask? Over the course of the past five years, you’ve probably heard about a little band called One Direction and Zayn Malik is a former member of this sensational boy band (too soon). Zayn-girls are simply extremely dedicated (or obsessed, whatever..) fans of Zayn whether he’s in 1D or not. Let’s just say that Zayn has put us Directioners through quite the emotional roller coaster over the past year.

Zayn quit One Direction in February of 2015 and it was the beginning of the longest year of a Zayn-girl’s life. Shortly after ditching the poppy love songs, he ditched his former fiancé, Perrie Edwards of the British girl band Little Mix, too. Zayn-girls went wild. But of course, Zayn being Zayn, the single life didn’t last very long. He posted a cozy looking photo on Instagram in September of him and what was basically the Walmart version of Perrie (sorry not sorry) and broke the hearts of millions around the world. That flavor of the week was quickly replaced by the current apply of his eye, the stunning Gigi Hadid.

Whenever your imaginary celebrity boyfriend gets a girlfriend, it’s never easy. But, something about it being Gigi made it sort of easier to accept. Being a die-hard Zayn-girl myself, I’ve taken it upon myself to be the voice of our pack and explain to the public what we went through.

Stage 1: Denial

No. No. NO. Absolutely not. If E! didn’t confirm this, I don’t believe it.

Stage 2: Sadness

*Sobs into Zayn body pillow while listening to 1D*

Stage 3: Anger

Gigi doesn’t even deserve him! I deserve him! What a boyfriend hopper. Wasn’t she just dating Joe Jonas, like, less than a month ago?!

Stage 4: Acceptance

I guess they would make cute babies..

Stage 5: Obsession

I CAN'T WAIT FOR ZIGI TO BE THE OFFICIAL NEW POWER COUPLE OF HOLLYWOOD!

So, Zayn, if you’re out there reading this with your beautiful big brown eyes, just know that your fans are buzzing over this blossoming relationship. Please don’t break Gigi’s heart, unless you’re looking for me to be your next girlfriend.