Turning 30 | The Odyssey Online
Start writing a post
Lifestyle

Turning 30

Embracing the next chapter in my life...

22
Turning 30
polili.com

Thirty... something.


327.

327 days until I say goodbye to my 20's and hello to 30. And I am scared. I never thought I would see myself turning this milestone age. I've asked friends and family about how they felt once they hit the big 3-0. Their responses have paralyzed me. It's a decade of growth, a decade of renewal as well as a decade of midlife crisises.

For me, the 30's decade is like a checkpoint.
Am I happy with myself? Am I where I want to be in my life?
Right now, I am at a crossroads. Parts of me is wanting to embrace this next chapter in my life and look ahead to becoming older... but I have to be honest, I am anxious. I feel like a failure because by now, I should be a mom to at least two children, married, and living somewhere else instead of my hometown. So much for that storybook fantasy...

... but on the other side, I feel comfortable. Yes, I have committed some flaws and mistakes, and I can finally release myself of the past. It's been 10 years since I lost my best friend, my mother, and I am finally coming into peace at her passing. And as far of the children thing, I enjoy being a mentor to preteen girls who are beginning to figure out what their gifts are in life. I can't forget about my Sunday School and Children's Church babies and lastly, my precious Godchildren.

No matter what mood I might be feeling, their bright faces bring joy into my life every single time. I enjoy when one of my babies tell me, ā€œMiss Renee, do you like my new dressā€ or the always popular, ā€œLook Miss Renee, the tooth fairy gave me $10 bucks for my tooth! Cool, huh?ā€ Lately, the scripture ā€œ...for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances...ā€ from Philippians has brought so much new meaning for me. So, I'm going to pray to God to end my final year of my 20's and look ahead to my 30's with content.

Yes, turning 30 creeps me out like crazy, but I'm going to trust the Lord to see me through when August 3, 2017 arrives...

...in 327 days.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
Entertainment

Most Epic Aurora Borealis Photos: October 2024

As if May wasn't enough, a truly spectacular Northern Lights show lit up the sky on Oct. 10, 2024

4315
stunning aurora borealis display over a forest of trees and lake
StableDiffusion

From sea to shining sea, the United States was uniquely positioned for an incredible Aurora Borealis display on Thursday, Oct. 10, 2024, going into Friday, Oct. 11.

It was the second time this year after an historic geomagnetic storm in May 2024. Those Northern Lights were visible in Europe and North America, just like this latest rendition.

Keep Reading...Show less
 silhouette of a woman on the beach at sunrise
StableDiffusion

Content warning: This article contains descriptions of suicide/suicidal thoughts.

When you are feeling down, please know that there are many reasons to keep living.

Keep Reading...Show less
Relationships

Power of Love Letters

I don't think I say it enough...

450577
Illistrated image of a letter with 2 red hearts
StableDiffusion

To My Loving Boyfriend,

  • Thank you for all that you do for me
  • Thank you for working through disagreements with me
  • Thank you for always supporting me
  • I appreciate you more than words can express
  • You have helped me grow and become a better person
  • I can't wait to see where life takes us next
  • I promise to cherish every moment with you
  • Thank you for being my best friend and confidante
  • I love you and everything you do

To start off, here's something I don't say nearly enough: thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart. You do so much for me that I can't even put into words how much I appreciate everything you do - and have done - for me over the course of our relationship so far. While every couple has their fair share of tiffs and disagreements, thank you for getting through all of them with me and making us a better couple at the other end. With any argument, we don't just throw in the towel and say we're done, but we work towards a solution that puts us in a greater place each day. Thank you for always working with me and never giving up on us.

Keep Reading...Show less
Lifestyle

11 Signs You Grew Up In Hauppauge, NY

Because no one ever really leaves.

22271
Map of Hauppauge, New York
Google

Ah, yes, good old Hauppauge. We are that town in the dead center of Long Island that barely anyone knows how to pronounce unless they're from the town itself or live in a nearby area. Hauppauge is home to people of all kinds. We always have new families joining the community but honestly, the majority of the town is filled with people who never leave (high school alumni) and elders who have raised their kids here. Around the town, there are some just some landmarks and places that only the people of Hauppauge will ever understand the importance or even the annoyance of.

Keep Reading...Show less
Lifestyle

Moana's Top 10 Life Tips

"Moana" is filled with life lessons that involve far more than finding true love as many other Disney movies do.

45172
Animated image of a woman with long dark hair and tattoos
StableDiffusion

1. It's easy to be fooled by shiny things.

Digital image of shiny gemstones in cased in gold. shiny things StableDiffusion

Tamatoa created a liar filled with shiny things simply for the purpose of tricking fish to enter and become his food. He too experiences a lesson in how easy it is to be tricked by shiny things when Moana distracts him by covering herself in glowing algae so Maui can grab his hook.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments