My entire life has been full of comments from others along the lines of, “You’re so quiet all the time,” or, “Why don’t you ever talk to anyone?” Frankly, I’m to the point where I am running out of excuses as to why I am not going out of my way to talk to people. There is now just one simple explanation that I can come up with- I don’t want to.
No, not in any way shape or form does this mean that I hate you, it simply means that I want my space. If I want to talk to you then I will. I just really enjoy my personal space. Yes, I am shy. Yes, I am reserved. However, I, as well as many other people, do in fact enjoy human interaction (once in a while).
There are many times that people think of me as rude or sassy due to the fact that I don’t talk much. The truth is, if you catch me off guard, I might be. And I apologize in advance for anyone who experiences this from here on out. If you catch me in a time where I’m down to talk then by all means, let’s talk. Forewarning, I will probably think what you are saying is more interesting than anything that could ever come out of my mouth, so please, keep talking, I would rather listen. Then again, my life is an open book but if you do not want to take the time to ask me about it I will not go out of my way to tell you about it. So if I am hurting or struggling with something, understand that I am not okay and sometimes I need help.
I thrive in seclusion and the last 2 years have been very eye opening for me to realize that I am not the only one like this. An introvert is someone who might be consistently shy or reticent but they have no intention of being standoffish or impolite. We just have different ways of showing ourselves to others and openly expressing what we are feeling or how our day is going.
Please embrace my social awkwardness and understand that small talk makes me wish we were not talking at all. If you are not down to have a genuine conversation with me then you might as well talk to the sea of extroverts around me because odds are I would rather continue to listen to my music and explore the world of Pinterest. But just because I am quiet does not mean that you can underestimate me. I will forever know more about you than you think I do. Observation is my strongest asset to my life. I would be lost without it.
I like to embrace myself and my personality features as much as I can. As much as some other people might find me boring or strange, I like to think of myself as unique. There is no other person in the world who is exactly like me and to just sit there and ponder that for a second, now that is pretty freaking cool. Every part of me has come from what has happened to me, the same goes with every person in the world. So embrace YOU and your uniqueness. Never be afraid to be true to you.