Looking into the eyes of kids, I see them light up with joy and happiness and I wonder how can I be like them?

Lately, I have been stressed out with school, work, and with my family. I feel like I am constantly on the go and find myself stress out more than usual. Not being able to juggle school, work, and family has caused my anxiety and depression to elevate more than usual lately.

I look and think how did I get here? I was doing so well juggling my life. Then I realized that I have been juggling my life but not effectively. So when I feel that I am not juggling everything effectively, it is time to step back and reevaluate.

For the past month, I have not submitted a piece of content. I had my ME texting me and giving me opportunity after opportunity to submit a piece of content. She probably will be reading this and praising Jesus that I submitted a piece of content. It is not that I did not have anything that I could submit, it was that I lacked the drive to submit a piece of content. I was tired and feeling defeated with Odyssey. I love Odyssey but sometimes I feel like my efforts are in vain.

I know a lot of other Editor in Chiefs feel like the efforts are in vain and I am here to say it gets better. I look at what I started with, I only had about four content creators. Everyone was submitting at least two pieces every week, then school started. My team grew significantly within a couple of months and within weeks I had almost thirty pieces of content on weekly basis.

I thought how in the world am I going to manage all of this, I am only one person. I can barely even manage myself, let alone thirty people.

When I decided to step back from my team, people suddenly talked to me about how they either wanted to quit or how they would leave if I ever quit as EIC.

I honestly have thought about quitting, I have talked to other EIC's and vented to them my frustrations on how I thought I was not the best fit for my team as EIC. I was almost ready to quit then a content creator submitted me a piece.

This content creator talked about how she found a purpose with writing for Odyssey and how that I had created a family within our Odyssey Group Me. I had another content creator who told me she changed her major because she found her passion in journalism and is now a communication major.

I am making an impact on people's lives and I finally realize that it does not matter if I am getting paid for Odyssey or doing it voluntarily. Inspiring people is my purpose for this world and helping them realize their true potential and I would not change a day now being Editor in Chief.