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Poetry On Odyssey: The Inner Thoughts Of A Eating Disorder

I wrote this piece in hopes to shed light on what it's like to have a eating disorder and the demons that come with it.

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woman looking in mirror

*Ana is a nickname to describe the voice in your head when you have anorexia

*Mia is the nickname to describe the voice in your head when you have bulimia

*Chewie is the nickname to describe the voice in your head when you spit and chew

The words still rang in my head:

"Fat,

Obese,

Why would you ever eat?"

But, I would not take this defeat.

I took the challenge to heart

And Ana helped play her part.

I started tracking my calories that day

Because this was no longer just a game,

It was something that was here to stay.

"Don't you eat that baby girl,

Don't you want to be pretty like her?"

"Yes, Ana, yes I do

Show me how to stay true to you!"

"Meet my friend Mia

And she'll tell you what you need to do."

"Throw up what you ate today!

Come on, do it before it's too late!

Run, run before we're out of time,

I can feel those calories inside."

So, I stuck one finger down my throat.

Two, three, it wouldn't work!

"What's wrong with you, you worthless kid?

Look at this body, you disgusting pig.

You're 103,

What a disgrace.

I don't want to see that food,

Not a trace."

So, that day I starved myself.

Kept a journal to draw it out.

With Chewie,

I learned to chew, not swallow

Breathe and become hallow.

Skinny is pretty,

That's what I learned.

"Beauty is pain,"

That's what I heard.

It's all worth in the end.

I would win this game,

With the help of my new friends.

Disclaimer: In no way am I encouraging eating disorders or saying it's a good way to lose weight. I was trying to show the thought process that someone has when they have an eating disorder.

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