*Ana is a nickname to describe the voice in your head when you have anorexia
*Mia is the nickname to describe the voice in your head when you have bulimia
*Chewie is the nickname to describe the voice in your head when you spit and chew
The words still rang in my head:
"Fat,
Obese,
Why would you ever eat?"
But, I would not take this defeat.
I took the challenge to heart
And Ana helped play her part.
I started tracking my calories that day
Because this was no longer just a game,
It was something that was here to stay.
"Don't you eat that baby girl,
Don't you want to be pretty like her?"
"Yes, Ana, yes I do
Show me how to stay true to you!"
"Meet my friend Mia
And she'll tell you what you need to do."
"Throw up what you ate today!
Come on, do it before it's too late!
Run, run before we're out of time,
I can feel those calories inside."
So, I stuck one finger down my throat.
Two, three, it wouldn't work!
"What's wrong with you, you worthless kid?
Look at this body, you disgusting pig.
You're 103,
What a disgrace.
I don't want to see that food,
Not a trace."
So, that day I starved myself.
Kept a journal to draw it out.
With Chewie,
I learned to chew, not swallow
Breathe and become hallow.
Skinny is pretty,
That's what I learned.
"Beauty is pain,"
That's what I heard.
It's all worth in the end.
I would win this game,
With the help of my new friends.
Disclaimer: In no way am I encouraging eating disorders or saying it's a good way to lose weight. I was trying to show the thought process that someone has when they have an eating disorder.
