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College Doubts: Juggling Multiple Disciplines

As if college wasn't hard enough on it's own.

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Kayla Howard

August 2018 marks the beginning of my fourth and final year at Boise State. While I'm thankful to the University, and to all those who've helped me along the way, for the experiences and learning opportunities provided to me over the past three years, there's no denying the fact that I'm ready to move on with my life. The all too familiar itch of senioritis is evidence of this as it instills a sense of urgency in me to wrap up my academic career before I run out of steam.

Seems easy enough, right? Just keep up the good work and plow on through the home stretch. In theory, this approach is deceptively simple. The logic is nearly bulletproof to an optimistic, blind eye. However, in practice, the flaws in this plan become all too clear.

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It sucks to admit it, but hard work- in and of itself- does not equal success. To truly shine in a discipline of study, a student must possess both passion and the infamous "It" factor. Without the willingness to make sacrifices along the way, along with the inherent ability to understand and comprehend the real-world application of the subject, your effort and your time are effectively wasted.

Acknowledging this truth is not so different from receiving a tetanus shot. It stings at first, and the blow to your pride is initially discouraging. But, in the end, it's good for you. By facing your weaknesses head-on, you learn to capitalize your strengths. I, myself, faced this bitter-sweet conclusion last semester.

Coming into college, I had a solid plan: major in Creative Writing and minor in Business Marketing, graduate with high honors, nail down my dream career, and eventually take over the world of Publishing and Editing. For two years, my plan progressed smoothly. Then, last year, I took my first Marketing class and it kicked my butt. Seriously, karma's bite was child's play compared to this. Even the soothing relief of a passing grade wasn't enough to dispel my doubts. I quickly realized I needed a new plan of attack, and I needed it fast.

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I scheduled the earliest available meeting with my academic advisor and started researching my options. Soon after that, I decided to pursue a certificate in General Business. Although this change was not part of my original strategy, it doesn't affect my end goal. I still intend to pursue a career in publishing and editing, and I'm not about to let a discontinued Marketing minor hold me back.

Juggling two seemingly unrelated disciplines is hard work. Often, there are times when I feel like the world is against me. I feel pressured to stick with what's most comfortable and what's most certain. The doubts I have about the future of my academic and professional career are overwhelming at times. They lead me to question my standing as a member of two different disciplines. Despite this uncertainty, I'm sure of my passion and my ability to achieve my end goal.

If you're in a similar situation in which you're questioning your ability to make it through one of life's many trials, just remember that you know yourself better than anyone else. You know your weaknesses, and you know your strengths. Now is the best time to take advantage of that knowledge.

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