I'm the most indecisive gal you can ever meet. I can never ever decided on what I want, which can be more of a curse than a blessing! Like this morning I couldn't even decide if I wanted cream cheese on my bagel or to go plain. It took me nearly 30 minutes to contemplate it before I got up to make myself breakfast and I didn't even eat a bagel...I got strawberries instead. So, deciding on what I want to do with my life, don't even get me started. I'm 20 and I still can't decide on a set major.

Picking a major for some is a piece of cake because they already know what they want to do, which I envy. However, in some cases, like me, some people are honestly unsure and scared of doing something they will not enjoy doing for the rest of their life. Many students are forced, often by parents, to select a major that they do not enjoy. Other students are unsure on which path they want to take and are informed they must pick a field they are not entirely sure to avoid graduating late. This is what I did and why I ended up in this dilemma.

Freshman year I came into college as a psychology major with a liberal studies minor. I don't know why I chose it; I wanted to pick something while filling out my common app. I didn't want to go into college as "undecided" and I enjoyed psychology in high school and wanted to further my studies in that field. As the semester progressed, I took several classes from poly-science, human services, government, and sociology. You name it, I probably took it. I still was not sure I liked it.

However, my parents wanted me to be in the medical field and wanted me to be in a major that paid well. So, I declared nursing my sophomore year, even though the only science related classes I took were in high school and a nutrition class in college. I always loved helping people and interacting with everyone. It's the type of person I am! So this idea to become a nurse was becoming more and more appealing. Growing up, one of my dreams in college was to become a Pediatric nurse practitioner. Last semester I started taking science classes and currently this semester I added to it. I always was a girl who did very well in school and never really had to "study" when it came to school, that changed in a heartbeat!

Now, looking back I'm 75% sure that this career choice was a horrible one, but I'm not afraid of the thought of changing my major once again! Science classes are not my cup of tea, yes could I bare it, and pass (barely). I just have no interest in it at all, I could be in an hour lecture class and not comprehend anything. I dread doing homework for the classes and I hate reading the material for it. Do I want to be in a career for the rest of my life hating it!? NO! I know for a fact that I absolutely HATE any sort of science. Had I taken any of those science classes, my freshman year I would be sitting at a terrible GPA, and would have hated my college experience.

Even though I'm not 100% sure what I want to do with my life just yet, I know some paths that I want to take and with the help of god, my family, faculty, and friends I'll get there, even though I'll graduate a year late.

My advice to current seniors in high school and current college freshman is really think about what you want to do with your rest of your lives now, rather putting it off for when you get to college! It saves you ALOT of stress. Prep yourselves now because college doesn't really prep you! I did what my dad wanted me to do and was pursing a career that would help me financially. Yes, it was manageable but my heart wasn't in it. Money is good but do something you are passionate about, something you'd wake up and enjoying doing. Don't let someone depict your life for you. My advisor kept telling me "NURSING, this would be good for you, your grades are fantastic". How does having good grades mean I'd be a good nurse, even though I hadn't even taken science classes? At the end of the day, it's your life you should do what you want.

A good friend of mine said to me, "Honestly, Istahil I've just come to realize in this world, you have to choose happiness first cause you're only here for a short while. If you continue to force major your heart is not into then you won't find success " YES, GIRL YES! Thank you for this Nancy and hearing my shrieking cries of being so confused in life. Anywho, do your research and look into things that combine what you like to do with something practical as well to fall back on!

ITS OKAY TO BE LOST!!