My biggest regret is the things throughout my entire life that I haven't said to the things that I've needed to say them to, and I'm learning with time that it's always better to just say it. When it comes to expressing how I feel, it's hard as nails for me. I'm an extremely anxious individual, and I often times will overthink things ahead of time, always envisioning the worst thing happening if I tell them this one specific thing versus hold it in. I always somehow make it seem rational in my head that me, for instance, telling someone how I felt about something they did the other day, may result in me, oh I don't know, dying alone or losing them as a friend forever with no possible option of ever having them back in my life. This article is for you, reader, as much as it is for me. Don't. Hold. Things. In.
Imagine a gutter that's clogged because of the rain, like super clogged about to fall off the side of your house clogged. That's sorta what happens when you bottle things up. It's like a weight on your shoulders that you just can't shake, and it just won't stop raining. If you hold things in, it's going to build up more and more until you inevitably fall apart. It could be the type of burden that eats you alive, or the type that sits there like a stone, but neither is comfortable or healthy. It's so simple to find somebody to talk to, whether it's a hotline or a local counseling center. It doesn't even have to be a professional, you could call a sibling or parent. Just vent. You'll honestly feel so much better if you do.
Talking to people about your problems is essential to being happy in my opinion. You'll never get anything solved if you let it sit and rot. If you have an issue with how you are right now this very second, start taking steps to fix it. Nobody will do it for you.