This is to all my shy girls out there, who might not have lots to say, but sure do have hearts full of gold.
I find that my actions often speak louder than my words, but that's just because I normally don't have much to say. I'd rather prove to people that I am a wholesome human being by showing them rather than telling them.
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The funny thing is, when I actually want to express my emotions verbally, I fumble with my words so much that I never actually get to say what I'm thinking. I guess I'm not good with words, but that's just how I've always been -- a shy girl who has all the right morals, intentions, and thoughts, but just doesn't know how to express them properly.
Writing has been my outlet for any type of emotion for as long as I can remember. When you write, you're free to fumble with your words, because you can always erase your mistakes. My writing helps me debrief for all of the pent up words that I often don't have the courage to say.
I find myself always thinking way too much about every verbal statement I make because I don't want to say something embarrassing or offensive, and I usually end up not saying anything at all because I'm scared of the criticism of others. However, I learned that it is not always a bad thing to be the "quiet one" or the one with "few wise words."
You will almost never find me being the first one to volunteer in class for a presentation, introduce myself first, or yell across campus to someone that I don't know personally.
Depending on the people that I am around, I can open up and talk about anything. Once I trust you, I can break down the shy exterior and speak about how I'm feeling. However, it takes me a little while to form relationships like these because I don't let my guard down so easily, and often times it's my shyness that gets in the way of that.
My shy personality has always been a struggle that I have faced, especially this past year when I went to college over two and a half hours away and was forced to meet all new people. But now, I have learned to embrace it. Being shy is who I am, and sometimes when I am with a group of people, I don't want to talk a lot -- and that is OK.
If there is anything that I have learned throughout this journey, it's that I can break out of my shell and step out of my comfort zone, but I will never be an outspoken and bubbly person like so many of my friends. I am who I am. And in my case, sometimes words are better left unspoken.
For those who are close to me, you know that I am a caring and loving person that will bend over backwards for anyone I know. I see the good in anyone and everyone, but I show this solely through my actions.
So, for those of you who don't know me, and often think I am "stuck up" because I don't have a lot to say -- don't judge a book by its cover. You don't know me for the "real" me, and just because I don't approach you and start a conversation, doesn't mean I don't secretly want to.
I believe that we are all individually created for a purpose of our own. Whether you're shy, outgoing, adventurous, sensitive, funny, or humble, you are who you are. So just know that even if you are shy, you have the same amount of power as a person who is not quite as soft spoken.
