Recently, it seems as if the devil is throwing his entire brigade at me, but i refuse to falter. I refuse to let him hinder me from my friendships, loved ones, and my relationship with God. The Lord has been here for me through things I surely didn't deserve Him to be, but he has remained loyal; I shall do the same. I'm going out into the world, and I am changing it.

No longer will I allow others to influence my actions when it comes to my relationship with God. Hold me to it because if I proceed with the mundane influence on my spiritual life, I'll surely be damned. My family is the root of my spiritual unrest, and I intend to change that. Home is no longer a safe place to rest and worship; it is a tension filled breeding ground for oppressive spirits.

No longer will I allow my home to be overrun by demonic influence; if I have to figuratively burn all the books of the oppression, I will. Doing so will break bridges under construction, but it will free me and my soul; therefore, it must be done. When my respect is thrown out and replaced by a new definition of the word, I can no longer do good in the world, and it's hindering me from completing my spiritual journey. This is who I am, and if they can no longer deal with that, it's on them.

No longer will I allow myself to be belittled in the eyes of beloved family and friends because of others' opinions of me. Taking a stand against oppressors is not easy, but I refuse to waiver in this war. A war,where the battle isn't fought with guns and swords but words and strategic planning, can only be won by the grace of the Lord, and He's on my side- who is on theirs? I'm protected by my faith and spirituality, but they have nothing in the end.

I am not who I was then nor am I who these people want me to be. I am happy, and I refuse to give that up for whatever spiritual oppression they're facing. This is the one time I am putting myself first, and I will forever stand by this word.