In all honesty when I woke up this morning and heard that Donald Trump had won the election, my heart started to hurt and that pain has stuck with me all day. I do not care who you voted for I am just happy if you even voted at all. I have heard so many people say that they did not vote because they do not think that their voices will be heard, but that is not true! Your voice matters, your vote counts. We all count, we all matter, and now I have solidified in my choice to hold off from kids (at least for 8 years).

I am not trying to be dramatic in anyway, but the fact is I feel unsafe. As Albert Einstein said, "The most important question you can ever ask is if the universe is a friendly place?" Today I do not see anything friendly about it. Here is the thing: I do not want to raise my children seeing that there is a man out there that is hateful and says hurtful things. I do not want my kids to think that they can say or behave in any disrespectful way. I do not want them to think that they are entitled and can be handed things without questions asked. I want hardworking, respectful, and intelligent children that understand there are consequences for their actions.

I do not want to raise children in a world that I feel is unsafe because it's not progressive, because there is too much hate, too much racism, sexism, all the -ism's. I thought that there was progress among us, but I felt the world stop. I felt the regression begin and I want my kids to grow up unafraid of their race, their sexuality, their gender, the very things that make up who they are. I want a world full of love and acceptance. I want a progressive world that has no room for hate and no room for the promotion of hate.

There are many strong memories I have as a child that whether my parents could help or not. I noticed the president, I noticed the person HE was, and I noticed how other humans treated some as if they were not human. I still get days where people ask me if I am Mexican as if it would make me any different from them. As if I had been; I am not a true American. The color of my skin does not matter. What is my cultural background? Beautiful! Your background? Beautiful!

At the beginning of this election I started to rewatch the show "Scandal" (shout out to my girl Shonda Rhimes. I love you. Yuge fan) and in the second season during the first episode Olivia Pope says, "They don't want Donald Trump, they want Abraham Lincoln."

It isn't Trump's fault he won. We just lost sight of the Lincolns in the world (I am not saying Hillary is, but she is more so than him in my opinion only). It is our fault. Yet, I will not stop fighting and I will continue to vote. If I do finally decide to have children, I hope they do the same.

I am love, you are love, and in the end my faith is reassured that love trumps hate.

This is my opinion so please do acknowledge that I am a human and that it hurts my heart to receive hateful comments for speaking up about how I feel. No matter what: I love you too.