Do you remember?

Do you remember the first time we met? The first time we hung out?

Do you remember the first time we spent the night together?

Do you remember the first time we were actually alone together? The first time we were honest and open with each other?

Do you remember our first car ride together? The first movie we watched together?

Do you remember?

Because I do.

I remember the first time we met, the first time I saw you. I remember thinking that you were cute and that you were really funny. I remember thinking that you were someone that I certainly want to get to know a lot more.

I remember the first time we hung out, the time of year it was, how cold it was outside. I remember how we were up all night, us and all my friends, until the sun came up and we figured that it would be a good time to get some sleep because we were going to do it all again later that night.

I remember the first time we spent the night together, just you and me. I remember it like it was yesterday. It was one of the best nights I had ever had, and one of the best nights rest I have ever gotten. Thank you.

I remember the first time we were alone, completely alone, together. I remember how that night we were so open and honest with each other. We talked about everything you could think of that night; life, death, family, friends we had before we knew each other, past relationships and if they went/ended well. You name it, we probably talked about it. That night was beautiful. Thank you.

I remember the first movie we went and saw together. I remember throughout the whole movie you would lean over to me and tell me what you thought was going to happen next and how you thought the movie would end. I remember being annoyed and completely happy at the same time.

Do you remember the first time you were at my house? The first time you met my family? I remember.

I remember how impressed my father was by you and how my niece and nephew loved you from their first sight of you. I remember you being such a gentleman to all of my family and riding the waves when they would tease you about how you dressed or how you said certain things. My family takes no mercy on new people they are introduced to. That weekend was so refreshing for me and I needed it very much. You made it a beautiful weekend. Thank you.

I remember how you wouldn’t leave me on my birthday and how thankful I was for that. I remember how you let me cry on your shoulder when things would get rough.

I remember.

We have had a lot of firsts together. You mean a lot to me, kid, whether you like that thought or not. You will always have a special place in my heart forever and always. I know you didn't want me to get this attached, that was never the plan. But for a brief moment, you showed me what it was like to be taken by someone, to be in complete awe of how amazing that person is to you. You showed me what it was like to have someone's full attention when I was with them, to have someone to listen when I needed them to. How did you expect me to not get so attached?

As much as I hate to admit it sometimes you are on my mind an awful lot. I figured it would be a good idea to write all this down instead of keeping it in and hoping that I could find a time to say it to you. I made the time. The time is now.

How did we get to the place we are in today? How is it that we can never talk anymore? That we never see each other anymore? How can we walk by each other and act like we don’t know each other when just a short time ago, we spent almost every minute together getting to know every little thing we could about each other right down to the size shirt we wear. How?

You are a heavy subject on my mind, and I wonder all the time if I am for you as well.

So do you remember? Do you remember all the good times we had? Do you remember how close we were emotionally? Do you remember how much we meant to each other at one point in time in our short friendship?